Just expressing how I feel about my dad, My mom, and God in three letters.......PRODUCED BY: Dub Dutch
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Dear Daddy
Back as far as my memory can go
When you introduced my mother to ur new hoe
I was only four, when i met your whore,
Words were thrown back forth, as she kicked you out the door
And then u beat her down, kickin her while she was on the ground
Then u walk away, drive off, smiling while ur feeling proud
At the time I was scared, so I crouched up in the corner
That was my life just beginning to get colder
I never understood at the time wat it was all for
As I watched my momma bleed and cry all up on the floor
I didn't kno what to do, I was too young to understand
How words turn into fists, then mom unable to stand
I can look back and laugh at the past, but it was real
When my mom threw my new ninja turtle boots at ur windshield
But that was then, this is now, I'm just gettin if off my chest
I'll never forget, and u will never get my respect
Dear Mom
I gotta give you my respect for raisin three kids on ur own
I kno you been through a lot, when dad left you all alone
But you held your own, throughout all the drama
Being a single mom, squeezing every dollar
I kno I'm not a good son, and I notice that ur hatin it
especially when you told me that I am ur least favourite
Although that depresses me, I'm not angry with you
Cuz I know the type of the stress that i put you through
I kno that me and you never communicate, that's no debate
After years of no connecting, I just don't kno really wat to say
That's why I lock myself in my room and avoid my family members
Cuz i don't deserve to belong here, it's for the better
Even tho we don't talk, you still tend to spoil me
when u full kno I don't deserve to be that adoring
But you still have hope for me, I don't kno what else to say
except I love you, and I'm sorry for pain i cause everyday
Dear God
Every night before I went to bed, I always gave you a prayer
One our father, three hail mary's, cuz i really cared
Underneath my pillow, I always kept a rosary
My faith in you was so strong, even through the misery
I was always bullied by the other kids up in elementary
I've always hoped to wake up and say it was a bad dream
Bullied throughout high school, shoved inside lockers
Comin home wit bruises and cuts from all the clobbers
Always being laughed at, picked last in gym class
I was the biggest loser in school, but I still went to mass
I didn't need friends, all i needed was my faith
Cuz I believed that one day universe would fall into place
But it never did and never will, so i had give you up
and ever since then, my life has been filled wit so much love
I achieved by myself what you never bothered to give me
And that was life, and jsut to be put out of this misery